Today..tommorrow..today...

I love how katie mettatal has the most interesting posts. I really enjoy reading them ..she describes every little thing..really shows her personality alot. And well hands down katie i really admire you alot. I hope you succeed in life..better yet..i know you will succeed in life.

okay so..question..do you ever just want to like someone? (as friends) but because of the way that person is sometimes..it just disgusts you? I mean by talking to this person are u contradicting yourself? I'm really trying hard to like this person..but I duno. I hear so much from people(not all of you) and i just wonder..if when they contradict themselves..do they know it? I hate to think of ppl as liars but then again this world isn't perfect..me being the first to admit i am far from it. Just a thought.

I'm really excited about starting my life now..Only two days left of highschool and well frankly IM READY TO GET OUT. I'm in the navy..and I leave June 10, 2004 to Chicago for basic training in other words Boot Camp aka HELL. After 6 long weeks I'll be in Pensacola Florida for college. I'm learning to be a Air traffic controller. I doubt that will be my life long career though..but its very damn good money. Infact in my life I want to be alot..a singer, a teacher, a nurse, and well an air traffic controller..haha. I hope to stay as ambitious as I am now..I know if that fails..i fail.

And to all of you, the outcasts, the loners, the different, people who defy the status quo I raise my glass to you. It's damn hard getting through this life..exspecially when youre not sure who you are yet. I say stand up..lift your head high..because it takes alot to be different..to defy whats normal. Be acheviers after all you are the hero in your story..you only live this life once..fight for it..its yours for the taking. If someone tells you its impossible..to anything you dream you tell them well fuck a pretty penny..b/c you can its all what you make it. everything is what you make it.

On that note ladies and gentleman I am tired..so long for now.

-JP

its 2:10 am. my first post.

its amazing how you randomley meet people online. i met this guy tonight and hes an amazing singer/songwriter. And i started to wonder about him. What he loves, what he hates, just the simple to the complicated things about him. And then i started to think about everyone else. I wish i could live many lifetimes just so i could know so many of you. Maybe i'm just being to i duno.

How about graduation is soon. I really will miss things-really. Mostley the people. I've been hanging out with this one girl. I really admire her. She's so strong ya know? I love it..b/c not many women are strong. but she is-shes also funny and great to talk with..i just regret that we wait till the last week of school ya know to get to know each other.

and you know..life is such a beautiful thing..when ur smiling at me